Let me give a lil intro about my extended family.. Altogether, we have 6 people born in the same year of '81. Three girls and three guys.. All of us have a natural bond with each other, especially the 3 girls - Idah, Aishah and Radiah. Doesnt matter that one of us is living in Malacca, we still have that certain closeness from young. Its one of those "no-need-to-say-far-but-always-close-at-heart" type of closeness. Theres no need for us to keep in constant contact cos whatever it is, because of us being born in the same year, we will still have that kind of connectivity.. The whole family knows that so no matter what, we will always be associated with each other..
So the thing is, last saturday, i went to Idah's wedding in Malacca. I made it a point that no matter what, I will still go to her wedding so off i went.. Aishah already couldnt make it due to work commitments so I have to go by hook or by crook. It was a nice wedding, havin its own grandeur in its own simplicity. Beautiful. My cousin was looking her best ever, i tell you.. Couldnt say the same for myself, though. Cos everyone commented that i put on weight.. Not fat, but "berisi". In other words "still looks okay but in great danger of being fat". So i guess thats red alert for me..
Apart from these type of comments, what i get more from the family is the "When is your turn?" question. Thats what im perturbed about. Like i said, because of the connectivity we three had from young, we will always be associated with each other. Aishah's married with one son, mind you. Idah's just got married so the pressure is now on ME. Me me me!!! Its alrite for the three guys to stay single. But they expecting to eat my nasi minyak soon.. Aaarrrgggh!
Look.. its not as if i dont want to get married okay.. Like every other girl, all of us will always look forward to that Big Day of ours. Im no different. I too want to have a husband to call my own, somebody you can lean on, someone whom you share your ups and down with, get physically close with without any restrictions. I too want to have my own children (and maybe one or two adopted ones) and build my own family. But as much as i want these, it takes time for me to get them.. and money too, of course. I know that age is not going to wait for me and i have to think of settling down soon. Im already 25 this year. Not only 25. My mom already warned me that she wants me to get married before i hit my late twenties.. definitely before i turn 30. Although she doesnt pressure me, somehow or rather, her words just get to me..
But its still not a call for desperation... yet. Until somebody pops the question to me, i just have to make do with what i have. As much as i want it, it will only work if somebody wants it too.. For now, I shall keep all these girly wishes aside first and try to concentrate on other important things that i must consider. Like money and work and study as well, mind you. My studies is not officially over till i get that Bachelor's Degree. By right, marriage should be in the cards for about 2 years after you complete your studies. But by left, who knows.. could be more, could be less. Let fate decide. As what i put in my friendster profile, "Although the present is our own, the future was with Fate..". In other words, what we do today is entirely on our own decision but what happens tommorow was already decided by fate. Nobody knows whats going to happen.. It all depends on your destiny...
.:: Da Unpredictable Me ::.
namE :: raDiah
gendeR :: femAle
doB :: 29th May
horoscopE :: II ~ GeMiNi, The Twins
locatioN :: Eastern S'pore
~Life for me is unpredictable. But its the very unexpectancies that makes it all exciting, interesting and definitely beautiful~
*new list of things* To take my mom to Melbourne Bebe rhinestone tee Canon digital camera Silver charm bracelet A good bag Nice pair of heels Sunglasses Anna Sui pressed powder Escada Sunset Heat perfume
New pair of jeans
Blue Orchids
